Prioritizing Yourself

“Just because you don’t understand it doesn’t mean it isn’t so.”

– Lemony Snicket, The Blank Book.

I applied for a free online course

I’m not bored more like procrastinating. So, I decided to enroll myself to free online courses. Only because, (1) job hunting for the past months since March isn’t going anywhere so I might as well do something productive, (2) why not? Learning new things can be adventurous too.. (3)I’m actually, slowly, turning into a couch potato.

Storytime: “If you received this, I used to have a crush on you”

“You’d rather make up a fantasy version of somebody in your head than be with a real person.”

— Jenny Han

Enola — a review

“My life is my own.”

— Enola Holmes

A man named Ove

Is a 2016 Swedish movie that I recently discovered while scrolling through my Facebook account. I knew I had to watch the entire movie.

How are you?

My life has never been so complicated. I have no job, no achievements, freeloader, pain in the ass, no nothing. The list can go on, really. I am nothing. Sometimes, I really question myself: why is it hard to be alive?

every. single. time.

I always wonder [in the past seven long months of quarantine], why the hell I’m not getting the final interview? I mean, I’ve always taken every phone interview as if I was there, in a room with the recruiter. But every after initial interview, there’s this waiting game I call “you’ll never hear from them again” because they rarely call back.

Storytime: remembering my first code blue.

*Disclaimer: Names and other medical information of the patients mentioned below have been altered for confidentiality reasons..

“Sir, are you okay?” I asked Mr. A, as he’s sort of in a trance, staring blankly at the clinic’s ceiling and holding a half eaten biscuit on his right hand. Looks like I interrupted him on something as he smiled at me and said “I was just lost in my thoughts, don’t worry.” he then continued eating his biscuit. Feeling assured with his answer, I slowly start to walk away from his treatment.

Image from http://www.kidneynews.org

Not longer than five minutes, my senior went to check all patient’s vitals as he was doing rounds and suddenly he started shouting.

“CODE BLUE! CODE BLUE!”

the art of having no friends. . . during covid!

Let loose. Having no one to share your shitty day with or to celebrate your achievements. If there’s any, in the past 6 months. and counting…

I have ‘friends’, however, because of the pandemic it feels like I don’t have any. Given the circumstances, we have to be at least 6 ft apart and have our mask on when socializing, hugs & kisses seems like a stranger danger and if your friend lives on another state or city they must be on quarantine for safety purposes for both sides.

Social distancing means standing 6 feet apart. Image from mercurynews.com

Having no direct contact or conversation with another human beings aside from my family caused stress and an actual ‘Cabin Fever’ syndrome and/or symptoms.

The term “cabin fever” describes the psychological symptoms that a person may experience when they are confined to their home for extended periods. Such symptoms may include feelings of restlessness, irritability, and loneliness.

— medicalnewstoday.com

Retelling: Biohackers season 1, episode 2

Episode 2 begins in a flashback, we see young Mia overhearing a heated conversation between her father and a mysterious woman, who we can presumed to be Lorenz. A hint that it might be one of the reason of her interest to Lorenz.

In the wake of her twin, young Mia overheard hear father having a heated argument with a lady — presumably Lorenz